Every day, about ten people die from unintentional drowning. Of these, two will be children aged 14 or younger. Drowning is the fifth leading cause of unintentional injury death for people of all ages, and the second leading cause of injury death for children ages 1 to 14 years.1
In fact, more children 1-4 years die from drowning than any other cause of death except birth defects.
                                                             -Centers For Disease Control and Prevention

“Unable are the loved to die. For love is immortality.” —Emily Dickinson

All I ever wanted to be was a mother.
It is my dream, my passion, my purpose, my calling. My life.
I lost my daughter at almost a month old back in 2002. She was born too early
because I was sick and ultimately proved  she wasn't ready for this world. 
After Arielle died, I went on to have my son Malachi Alexei
and several years later, my daughter Avalon Mae.
in 2015 I left my ex husband and soon after, got together with my teenage love.
This added to my life my step-son Xavier. We loved our blended brood!
Each child was a blessing and a miracle, but didn't expect more. 
yet when Sean and I got together, it was fate. 
Amazing pregnancy at 40; conceived in the magic of Ireland at just the
beginning of our conception planning stages. But Devon didn't want to wait.
On my birthday I found out I was pregnant
Then on January 12, 2018, after painful days of labor and ultimately a C-section,
Devon Richard Chasse-Williams was born.

He made our lives pure joy, no matter what hardships we faced. 
He truly was, as his sister Ava called him, "A DREAM COME TRUE."

We spent 15 months laughing, learning and loving with him.

And then my life shattered

One second my little boy was running around the backyard with his brothers,
and the next second he was gone. It is all a blur now, screaming his name
and running around the yard frantically, checking all his favorite spots to go
-- until I saw him.
I  told Devon, as I did CPR on him, that he couldn’t leave me.
It’s not statistically possible. I already lost a child. But Death doesn’t care. 

I yelled at the water- I love water, HE loved water- I tried to teach him to swim.

Teach him to respect that element. But ultimately that element took his life away. 

He was my world and I know I was a good mother.
These things happen. Fate, coincidence, whatever it may be.
Medicine and a higher power couldn’t save him.
We were all enjoying life, playing in the yard on that sunny day.
But still, this child died. This perfect human creature. 

The fates are not cruel or kind. They just are. 

And this just IS 

My son died on Saturday. And a part of me died as well.

But we will live on with his memory and the gifts his life brought us. 

Our other children and our love, memories and friends will keep us going. 

May your soul transcend any mortal complications, anger, fear or pain.
May your energy be magical matter that continues to resonate throughout eternity. 

CDC. Wide-ranging online data for epidemiologic research (WONDER). Atlanta, GA: CDC, National Center for Health Statistics; 2016
Kyriacou DN, Arcinue EL, Peek C, Kraus JF. Effect of Immediate Resuscitation on Children with Submersion Injury. Pediatrics, 1994; 94 (2): 137-142.
Spack L, Gedeit R, Splaingard M, Havens PL. Failure of aggressive therapy to alter outcomes in pediatric near-drowning. Pediatric Emergency Care 1997; 13(2):98-102.
Erica's Story
"So, you’re possibly thinking right now, “This would never happen to me. I watch my child like a hawk. My child can swim. We don’t have a pool. They would know better than to go near the water.” My favorite mothers I’ve met since Noah died have told me in teary whispers of close calls they’ve had with their kids. Little ones getting out of the house, unnoticed, in ways they didn’t know they could. Kids dashing into the street. Tripping down stairs. Horseplay gone wrong. I’ve mostly been met with sympathy and compassion."

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